What's Your Word?
Your Word is "Hope"I answered all the questions honestly, but really, I don't think that's me. I think it could be...and probably should be...and maybe it will be. Maybe soon.
You see life as an opportunity for learning, growth, and bringing out the best in others. No matter how bad things get, you always have at least a glimmer of optimism. You are accepting and forgiving. You encourage those who have wronged you to turn over a new leaf. And while there is a lot of ugliness in the world, you believe that almost no one is beyond redemption.
I have tried recently to make some small improvements. YESTERDAY, I ran into my one IRL friend who's also IF. She's been much more aggressive about pursuing treatment and has already secured an appointment with a specialist who's highly in demand. I've realized that after I stopped getting upset each time I lost the who'll-get-pregnant-first contest, I started getting annoyed if IRL IF folk who'd been TTC longer got into treatment sooner. (Even though I decided I was on a break. Yes, that's crazy.) So it's not easy to listen, but I just asked her as many questions as I could and really listened to the answers. Forging connections with other IF people. Not easy, but maybe worth it.
Another thing I'm going to do is work on listening to others more intently in general. Let them talk; ask follow-up questions; care and inquire sincerely. I've found I'm happier caring more about someone else than desperately competing for an audience myself. But competing for airtime is a hard habit to break.
After I master this, I'm going to stop being a shrew to my husband...no, really. I am.
